REMINISCENCE

school is fine today.
woke up feeling crappy.
school was somehow fun.
home alone was not.
this post shall be short.

talking to you feels as if i was lying among the clouds.
but the moment it stopped, i fell onto the grounds.
this feeling can't be stopped
and i really want to voice out
but i know i can't.
i really want to hope for more,
but i know it is impossible.
so i stop,
but when i stop i cry.
how am i supposed to survive?
am i allowed to dream?
am i allowed to hope?
am i allowed to think that everything is possible?
am i?
am i?
am i?
i guess i ain't allowed.
and it is time i get used to it.
the dateline is reaching soon,
i hope for no response.
your happiness is then my happiness.

-zhixuan-